I am happy. I love my fiancee, and in six days, he will be my husband. He is a good man and I am lucky to have him. I am excited and scared and nervous and anxious about all the things that we have to get done before Saturday. But there is something else weighing on my mind that I need to get off my chest. A few people decided that they would bet on how long my marriage, and a few others, would last. They gave me three months. I thought that's a sad thing to do. Hoping other peoples marriage will fail.
I feel sad for those who feel it necessary to condemn other people's happiness. They must feel awfully sad themselves. I am sorry for their loneliness, and hope that the judgment they have used does not fall on themselves, when the do find someone to be with.
It also makes me think these "friends" do not know me at all. I'm not a quitter. I don't stop just because things are not turning out the way I thought they would or should. Adam is a good man and I would not be marrying him if I didn't know him very well, or if I thought that it would fail. I look forward to eternity with the man I love, and nothing, and no one will get in the way of that.
A sad thing to do.
An awful year so far
So this year has not been the most awesome ever. In 36 days I'm getting married. But lets back up a bit. Since November I have had two (possibly three) abcesses on my tonsils...so the ENT decided that they had to come out. That wouldn't have been so bad but my insurance was cancelled from October to January BLAH! So I have medical bills from the surgery and specialist visits. Then it took me about a month to fully recover from the surgery, and as soon as I was better I got the flu and was out again. Then my Grandfather died last week....so I was out again. My team thinks that I don't really exist, and is starting to feel neglected. MWAH! I'm hoping that we can get everything done in the five short weeks we have left before the wedding, because it feels like we are not making any progress at all, which is my fault because I'm having a hard time committing to anything. I finally said "sisters, it's all yours!" and let my two talented and beautiful sisters take care of most of it. I will try to keep up on my blog better, and we will see what is going on!
14 March 2008
Just Because...
Alright, so I have the best fiancee ever. I have had a really rough week and Adam has been there for the whole thing. He came over tonight and I opened the door and he handed me a yellow rose and this cute little stuffed dragon. I asked him what it was for, and he said it's just because I love you. He is totally and completely amazing. He brightens my day and I feel better about the world just by talking to him. He shows me respect and tells me he loves me and that he thinks I am beautiful. He is awesome. I know most people would say that a red rose would be more romantic, but it is so much sweeter because he knows that yellow is my favorite color. I love my future husband!
16 January 2008
Adam
Okay so I figure since I have a picture of my ring, I should have a picture of my fiancee. His name is Adam and he owns a computer repair business, and he's really good at it. He is brilliant. He is soooo strong he picks me up like I weigh nothing. He whispers in my ear and tells me how much he loves me. He treats me like a princess. He's 33 years old and a total geek :), but I love my geek and the way I feel when I'm with him. If any of you has seen Alice in wonderland and remember the tea party where they put Jam on the mouses nose to calm him down....he's the jam on my nose. I can't be upset or mad when he's there. He just makes me feel so good and happy. He has a talent for making me feel better. I love you Adam, and can't wait to marry you.
09 January 2008
Engaged.
So kids, remember that boyfriend I didn't know what to get for Christmas? Apparently he liked what I gave him....because he gave me a diamond ring. That's right I'm officially engaged. We talked to dad lastnight. Thhese pictures deffinately don't do the ring justice, it's really pretty. But the for now the how....We were watching a movie, so the lights were off and we were just sitting in the glow of the Christmas tree. He looked at me and got down on one knee...I'm not gonna lie I was confused...Until he grabbed my hand and said "Christy Lynn Smith will you be my wife forever and ever and ever." I must have looked really silly when I said yes with this dumb look on my face. Well we talked to my Dad last night and now it's official! So now you know. Oh his name is Adam. I can't wait to marry him, in may! Oh I was talking to my friend Amanda, who Married her husband, Adam in the Saint George Temple (where we are getting married) in May (The same week we are planning on getting married. ) It's funny to me.
05 January 2008
Sick Again
I am sick and tired of being tired and sick...the same thing, over and over. I'm totally over it. :( I am grumpy and would really just like to be healthy for an extended period of time. I guess I'll get over it. I have to...it's a big week for me. I'm supposed to meet my boyfriends family and then a short trip down to my parents. aye aye aye. Any whobee dobee. More later!
01 January 2008
This week
Sorry I'm bad at updating my blog. I am home for Christmas at last! I actually have been her since Wednesday, but have been so busy that I haven't been able to update. I watched my older sisters four kids for two days while my sister went on a trip for her anniversary. It was way fun, but taught me a lot of respect for any mother. It also taught me that I am definitely not ready to handle four kids all at once. I haven't seen Adam, my boyfriend, in a little more than three days. :( It makes me soooooooo sad. But on the brighter side he is coming down today! To meet the family.....yikes! He's a great guy and I'm sure my family will love him. I'd better go so I can get ready for him......
