Day 3 of 30

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I NEVER said it would be 30 consecutive days did I? HA! so I'm busy....and tired.

Something I have to forgive myself for.

PCOS. It's not my fault, it's something I have to deal with and something that my body has. Yet I feel totally responsible for it. I don't know if I've always had it, or if my weight gain has caused it. You'd think that if that were the case, it would go away with weightloss.

News Flash. PCOS doesn't go away. On top of that it makes it almost impossible to loose wait, and very difficult to conceive. It's a vicious cycle and something I have to look myself in the face and tell myself over and over, this is not your fault. Forgive and move on. Do what you can to make things better, or make things work as best as you...no I can.

It's not something I should HAVE to forgive myself for....but it is something I NEED to forgive myself for. Infertility sucks, especially when you know it's you.

08 August 2011

2 Comments:

Kimi said...

Hugs Christy! You are so strong and together I think you and Adam can get through absolutely anything! It's funny how we totally blame ourselves for a million things...even those that we really have zero control over.

Jessica and Robby Curtis said...

PCOS is horrible and I wish there was not such thing. I know how it feels. I hate it so much and I feel sad for anyone who is struggling with it as well. It is not your fault at all.